Perseverance

Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance.  Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.            
 --James 1:2-4

We've been asked many times over the past few months what is happening with our adoption.  It is a question that does not have a quick and easy answer.  For those who casually ask at work, we usually say, "Oh, we're still waiting".  The response is always, "Wow, it's been a long time".  Yes.....we know!  Truthfully, the answer is much deeper than that, but so hard to explain.  We ARE still waiting.  Waiting on God.  Waiting for Him to bring the right boy(s) into our lives.  God is up to something and I'm not so sure He wants us to understand or know exactly what it is.  Whether He is doing some work on me, our family, or really working behind the scenes in the lives of our future sons....I can't say.  All I can say is that when He wants us to understand, He will reveal the answers to us. 

For now, not much makes sense.  I battle with myself every day and remind myself that God is working on this and He has all this under control.....because nothing makes sense.  There are all these kids out there that need adoptive homes, but when we make inquiries (sometimes several), we don't ever hear back.  I strongly believe that it has been my time to wait and that's what I've been doing....waiting.  That's why I haven't posted in a month and a half.  We've had no news and I felt it was time to "be quiet".  This might not make sense to everyone, but I know I've heard God say to wait and He will bring the boy to us...we are not to pursue anyone else until that happens.  I have to say that just sitting and waiting is so much harder than fighting for something.  In fact, these have probably been the hardest few months of my life.  However, they have strengthened me....strengthened my faith and my character.  I KNOW God will come through on His promise to us....when it is His time.